Sometime I think, is it good to let the fate decide everything? Well. depend on how you see it. I think fate already plan out the best route for you. If you want to ruin it by taking a different path by all means... well, I'll try to follow that, but sometime I guess can't stop myself to go against it. Going against it? How do I know if I was going against the fate? what if it is part of it? Part of it that the fate wants you to feel that you are going against him in fate. gosh. I have no idea...

Well, today seems to be my punishment for me to go against my fate. Well, this lead to a chain reaction that I will suffer eternally. So now it is whether I want to lose to fate or I want to battle with it. It started of with few days ago…

Feel days ago, I join this CCA for dance. It is still alright when we do random partner. So I can get to dance around with different partner. Most importantly was I have a partner to dance with. So till this one day I need to make a decision for a permanent partner to dance with. Now here comes the fate. Fate wanted me to partner with this girl A. oh well, I like this girl B a lot. Well I think that it will be cool to be able to dance with her. Fate made the first decision. When the result of our match making by the CCA team, I was to be with A, although my first choice is this B. And you know what? I stupidly go and request to change partner to B. I feel so bad to do this. It make it looks like that I want to dump this A. Oh well. That’s all my fault. I deserve to suffer.  So my request got approve to partner with B.

Then you know what happen in the end? B never turn up for most of the lesson. I am passionate to dance… I want to go, because I really love it. And love to learn for the dance. But how can I go if the partner is not coming? So today I take up dance shoes and go for the dance. I am trying to be very brave here. Ready to dance all by myself. And I really dance all by myself. And  stood by the side watching them dance, when they need a partner. I am so sad. And also they have the performance dance, although I wish to perform. My partner for the dance wasn’t committed for that.

So now is was like, if I admit defeated. I will quit the dance. If I willing to take up the challenge, which I already did. I will then continue my suffering.

Oh man. Before I go, I saw a guy drive Ferrari to SMU school library. And he fetch a girl in his car. Guess you all know then. Sianz… Why don’t I have a Ferrari? I think fate made it this way because its best for me this way.